MY PEN AT 3:00 AM
Today, I had dinner a little earlier than normal. I had been busy all day and decided to lay in bed and sleep as soon as I finished my meal. However, the exact opposite happened. At three o’clock in the morning, I am still fully awake. I expected to be able to sleep sooner and my body was urging me to get into bed as early as seven o’clock at night.
What really happened was that I sat in my bed for almost eight hours and struggled to sleep better. My brain began to warm up just as I was being irritated with myself. I’m starting to rethink something. My mind seems to be very busy at the moment around three in the morning. I couldn’t stop from giggling. I was alone in my bedroom, and I was laughing loudly. Perhaps that’s normal if you don’t get enough sleep. I got up and grabbed my pen and pad, cheekily.
Since I don’t have a side table, I keep a small chair beside my bed every night so that I can easily grab it if I need it. By doing so, I won’t have to get out of bed to get my belongings, right? At 3:00 a.m., I find myself scribbling, doodling, sketching, and jotting down random thoughts that were racing through my head. I used to do so if I couldn’t sleep and my mind refused to relax. I’m going to jot down all the words, expressions, sentences, clues, and so on that come to mind.
The next day, I’d look over what I’d written and focus on it, processing and contemplating everything my subconscious told me to do. Some ideas are absolutely brilliant and I know I wouldn’t be able to give them my full attention if I were going through my normal days. I’m not sure if you’ll agree with me, but I believe “3:00 AM” is a magical time of day. You would get this sense of freedom at 3:00 a.m., as the rest of the household members are completely asleep.
Freedom to dream without being distracted. In the stillness of the night, I have the freedom to dream and compose. Or, to be more precise, in the early hours of the morning. I know we may have this freedom at any time of day, but there’s something about 3:00 a.m. that makes it special.
It’s difficult to put into sentences, but after you’ve experienced it, you’ll understand what I mean. Can you give it a shot another time? It is all up to you. I’m not expecting you to torment yourself by staying awake until 3 a.m. just to find out what I was talking all about. But if you give it a try, it would be a gratifying experience. Staying up after 3:00 a.m. brings me a new outlook on contemplating my day-to-day life. Even though I know I need to sleep, I have the impression that my mind is running clearer and calmer at this time of day.
Thinking at 3:00 a.m. provides me with better visions of what I should do in the morning, what I should prioritize, and what I should not take too seriously on a daily basis. It is important to have these daily conversations with yourself and you can only solve all of your problems in your own help.
My pen at 3:00 a.m. provides me with enough understanding and determination to confront another sunrise on the horizon. My pen at 3 a.m. will now allow me to sleep peacefully because I am finished analyzing everything about me. At 3 a.m., my pen helps me in gearing up for that fantastic day.